A long-standing member of AA, I still have a hard time with the whole Character Defect bit. If you follow the letter of the law, you’ll end up being somewhat, or something, other than human. Is perfection in all your dealings actually necessary? Do we need to pile that much extra stress on top of staying sober?
People are people. People have emotions, and people have reactions. We make mistakes, and they don’t all need some sort of amends. Many mistakes are simple; possibly just knee-jerk reactions to the witnessing of or involvement with another action. We have to have the freedom to react, be it positively or negatively. We have to be able to feel. We have to be able to express ourselves in a manner that suits our personalities.
Granted we shouldn’t be out to hurt other people, but people outside of AA shouldn’t be out to hurt other people either. We shouldn’t be doing things that are blatantly wrong, but neither should anyone.
We do need to be able to feel comfortable in our own skin. And that comfort zone varies from individual to individual. Acting within that comfort zone may not seem appropriate or necessarily proper to someone else, but does that make it wrong? No, not necessarily. In order to maintain our sobriety, it’s critical that that comfort zone within our emotional selves is both found and maintained.
We are not put on this earth to be angelic, nor are we put on this earth to tolerate every little bit of human flotsam that comes drifting our way. Other people are bound to do things that we find irritating, and if we consistently hold all of those potential reactions in, we will likely find ourselves either exploding in a totally inappropriate rage, or drinking once again.
I think that a great many relapses occur because persons in recovery try too hard to be too perfect. It can border on, or be fully immersed in zealotry, and that is seldom (if ever) an attitude that nets a positive result.
If we relax, take things in a moral and ethical manner and behave to the best of OUR ABILITIES, we will be fine. We need not strive for perfection.